I dont really know what to say now I'm here, other than I've not written for a while
it's in part due to having gotten used to not having access to write, and that I'm workign on my coffee table
but it's also in part due to the fact I've taken to a proper hand written diary, of sorts... it's a daily letter to andy, that i post to him once a week, a means to keep him up to date in what I'm doing while we're not seeing each other, but also so he can see some of the stuff I tend to keep hidden, a chance for me to say stuff to him I wouldnt otherwise... I'm hoping it'll open up conversation between us still...
tho obviously, while he's working silly hrs and not getting home til well past the time I'm tucked up and asleep, we're not talking, more than usual. which sucks
but on the plus side (if you can call it that) something I wrote the other week had him freaking out enough to call me at midnight as soon as he got home to tell me he missed me

:) gotta love those music gremlins...
"como duelen los dias sin ti" (what pain, the days without you)