you know, I didnt think I'd like living on my own... seeing as I always used to get a bit freaked out if I was the only one in the house late at night... but maybe that's because I knew there should have been other people around... whereas my flat is MY flat... there's no-one else here unless I have guests... and for the most part I've not been freaked out going to bed being the only one here... (tho the other night I was in the bath, hadnt locked my front door and hear another front door in the building shut and got a bit worried)
but I'm loving having this place to myself, just being able to kick back and do what I want and not worry about other people wanting the sofa, or the phone or even just a chat when I'm not in the mood :)
and yet, I keep toying with the idea of asking Andy to move in with me... and it's not out of loneliness, even tho I do miss him being here.
Its more that he's looking for a job to settle into... I've (hopefully) found one I can settle and stay with for a few years... and obviously at base level it will be great when he does too... but how does it work for US if he settles nearer his home?
I dont really want to be seeing him on random weekends for the rest of our time together... and if/when we get to wanting to move in together, who gives up their job and moves? cos trying to find somewhere midway to live would still mean major commuting, and I'm not really built for that idea...
so seeing as he's currently looking, woudlnt it make sense for now to be the time we make a decision about living together... for him to look nearer here for a job??

except that makes me feel like I'm making him do something he wouldnt normally choose to do otherwise, and I dont think it's fair for me to do that...
I just feel torn between supporting him and letting him live his life, and being selfish and wanting to start living our life together...