AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*breathes*

sorry, been needing to do that pretty much all day..
the contract for my flat cmae through in the post today, and of course I was still at Andy's cos once again I decided to stay one more night than I originally planned, so I've only recently gotten home and signed the forms, but I'll have to wait til tomorrow to post them back, slowing down the process yet a bit more.
it was bad enough yesterday when I got told my credit check was fine and dandy but that there wasnt enough time to get things sorted for me to move in at the weekend, so would the wednesday be ok... and it was at the time... then this morning Andy got a call from his recruitment people saying his interview's been rescheduled for wednesday, the same day I wanted him to be my white van man and drive my stuff for me...
so all day I've been going over and over in my head 'if he finishes his interview at this time, and can get to me by this time and we leave by this time we can pick the keys up before closing time and all's good. but that means him rushing abotu after his interview which isnt all that fair. so instead he comes over weds, we get the van and pack up that night, and go 1st thing thursday morning, only the estate agents think I'm picking up the keys weds...'
see why I needed the "argh"?

and of course I retreated into myself and didnt really speak to andy about it, tho I did call mum and he walked in on me chatting to her about it.. and ugh..
BUT, we were sat out in the garden in the glorious sunshine all day (as we did yesterday too), and after I'd been chatting to mum he seemed more cuddly which always settles me :D

we went out saturday evening, for "a couple of drinks" which of course turned into a "we'll be the last ones to leave the pub" nights... but at one point early on we were sat on our own and he started off on one of his drink inspired sentimental bouts... and brought up the fact that we dont really talk to each other about a lot of stuff... and again at the end of the night he said I have to tell him what he's doign right and wrong... so yeah, we're getting there I think, starting to break the walls down a bit.. *shrug* I dont know, I still figure it'll happen in time and its not something to be rushed, it doesnt bother me as much as it used to, I dont feel it's something pushing us apart from each other. It's a defence mechanism we've both put up, and in time it'll come down... and so far it's looking promising :)

right, I'm gonna go soak in the bath for a bit, relax, and then call my darling boyfriend before going to bed :D